butterflies and heartbeats....

So i am very sure that i've been feeling baby. I don't feel baby every day, but i have been feeling what i do believe is baby more often. Thursday i was driving home from work and baby was doing some flips in there....it gave me that butterfly feeling when you're on a roller coaster and you get butterflies in your tummy....then i played with the baby i poked my stomach and baby moved around....it was quite fun. :) I usually will feel baby when i'm sitting, so i often wonder if i'm crushing it and it's like, 'mom!! stand up, you're crushing me!'
I think hubby is a little jealous that i get to feel baby right now. I always make sure i tell him when i feel baby, so that he can touch my belly and feel connected. Clover, our four legged baby, has been VERY attached to me since i've gotten pregnant and even more so the last month or so..... so she follows me around EVERYWHERE!! So, it adds to hubby feeling left out....lol. I am looking forward to him being able to feel the baby on the outside.

So the last few weeks, when we have listened to the baby's heartbeat on the doppler, we've been picking up what sounds like a 2nd heartbeat. The 1st time it happened, hubby and i looked at each other and hubby said, 'no way-could there really be twins in there?' I said, 'no way - it's gotta be the umbli. cord or something' So, then i of course googled if you could find out you're having twins til later in the pregnancy even with multiple ultrasounds in the begining...turns out it can happen. And i have a neighbor who didn't know she was having twins until she was 4.5 mnths along...eek. I honestly don't believe i'm carrying twins, but i would like to just know what the extra heartbeat is coming from....i'll assume it's the umbil. cord. We'll know for sure Thursday.

ooohh...baby just moved.

will the worry ever end?!?!?!?!

So, we had quite the adventure today.....
both had off and we decided to begin our registries...... on our way to one store, we ended up hitting some black ice and went ice skating right into a curb..... AWESOME! slowly made our way into the parking lot so we could put on the spare and off to the car dealership, which just so happened to be right there..phew. So, we need a new wheel (the inside of the tire, not the actual rubber part, but the metal part) and alignment..and a hub cap since the book said to pull the hub cap off, when really apparently we needed to unscrew it....whoops, so hubby literaly started to pull it off in pieces...it was busted anyways...but for $62, we'll be replacing it with a hub cap at walmart or something. So, we'll hopefully get that new wheel piece tomorrow. We didn't hit the curb too hard, but it was enough to kinda jostle us...so then i debating while hubby was trying to change the spare, if i should call the Dr... i didn't think i needed to go in, but then i thought maybe i should just call - so i called my mom to see what she thought and she agreed that i should at least call the Dr. so that they knew and exspecially with everything we've done to get to this point... better to err on the side of caution. So, i called and basically they said that it sounds like i should be okay and if any spotting or cramping begins to call them pronto. Of course, now every time i go potty, guess what i'm for sure always checking....yup, the toilet paper, i mean, i've just always checked since the bleeding in the beginning, but now i'm almost not wanting to potty just in case there is blood....ugh, will this pregnancy ever be normal where i'm not always 2nd guessing every little ping???? THANK goodness for heart dopplers....once we got home i checked on the baby, and heartbeat sounds fine. So, i'll be taking it extra easy tonight and the rest of the week.......

babymania

So, today my parents so kindly came over and helped us start getting ready for baby.
My dad installed a closet organizer and it looks FANTASTIC....i'm sooooooo excited that it's installed and can't wait for hubby to paint the patches and then i can start to get it ready...woot!
My mom helped me organize my closet and i had gotten some bins to start the process, then we tackled the kitchen....way easier then i was thinking it was going to be. So we have one cabinet shelf that is all for baby and it currently has a bottle sitting in it. :) Then we hit the pantry and i have a half of a shelf for all things baby.

Doing these two things helped big time make me feel a-that this baby is 100% real - i mean, not that it wasn't real before, but like baby is really coming in a few months and b-made us both way excitied that baby is coming and things are getting done.

Jewel Osco is suppose to be having their freezer deal, so we'll be getting one of those so i can make and freeze baby food.....woot! So, cleaning out the garage is the next thing on the list.....

To many people, this is all boring and so not neat -- to me, i find all these things have helped me breathe a little more....and looks like hubby and i might start registering monday, since we both have off, and then i won't have to take a personal day...yeah! That will be great cuz then i can stop researching and reading reviews and reports on what we're looking at (cribs, strollers, car seats, pack and play, etc) to make sure it's okay. So far, things are looking good....now it's finding a color we both agree on. I could care less on color, but i want color--just not pink or blue blue.... i want to keep it a more neutral color - red, orange, yellow, green etc. Hubby wants black....which i said, that's fine, but i want some color to it. So the two travel strollers we like --one is black and orangeish/red and one is grey and green or we could do grey and light yellow. So, we'll see.

Let the babymania begin!

maybe baby?

So, i think i might be feeling the baby - i'm not sure, but today i do think it was baby. I am super aware of my body and have been REALLY focusing and paying attention and the last few days this week, there have been 'bubbles' or like a little flutter or something poking me from the inside that have made me stop and see if it happens again, which it usually doesn't, so i pass it off that it was something else. Last night i swear i def. felt something that would have been more baby then gas.....it happened a few times, the same feeling and around the same area.... then today i was in a meeting and i felt two little flutterings in the same area.... so i think it may be baby...but i'm not totally for sure if it is. I guess i'll find out soon enough. :)

lists, lists and more lists

why so many lists? Cuz apparently when you are pregnant you really do start to lose your mind....i seriously think that you're busy thinking of all the things that need to get done and what you still have to research and that you're going to be a new parent and how you're going to juggle F/T work and being a F/T parent and taking care of the dog and...and....well, shoot, i forgot what else i was going to say...lol. Anyways, i feel so disorgnaized, i feel like i'm dropping balls left and right and that i'm losing my marbles.....soon i'm going to have little pretty post it note artwork all over my house so i remember things. Twice last week i was having a conversation with my co-worker and twice, smack dab in the middle of what i was saying, i totally forgot what my point was, where i was going with it.... yikes.

Also, when you are pregnant, while you're losing your mind forgetting things, apparently you also forget how to eat....and so you dribble things onto your shirt or pants....crumbs everywhere, liquid all over...doh! I have never been such a messy eater in my life, everytime there are crumbs everywhere on my shirt, or i go to drink some water and it goes all over the front of my shirt...awesome! LOL

So, i've begun to organzie the house and i just don't even know where to start....ugh.

b-o-r-i-n-g

This stage i'm at is truly boring.....i can't feel the baby, i don't have a Dr. apt for another 3 weeks, i think i have a belly, but to the rest of the world i just look fat and there's really not much to do. I'm totally not complaining, i'm just simply pointing out the obvious. It's too early to register, it's to early to really deep clean and organize....it's just a boring stage.

TUMS- my new bff....just thought i'd throw that out there.

So yesterday i had a moment of complete pregnancy insane-ness. I mean, PMSx1000!!! It was crazy...i didn't know if i should cry or scream or do both or throw something or climb back into bed or what....it was just crazy, i felt crazy, i felt completely just at a loss at how i should feel or react... so i ended up crying just a little bit on the way home from work cuz i was just soooo over the day and how i was feeling crazy and just totally pissy and ugh.....and then i started laughing cuz i just felt ridiculous.

I feel like i popped a little this week, sunday i had on a zip up hoody that i've worn through out my pregnancy and i attempted to zip it up sunday and the darn thing was super tight zipped up...so, i feel like my belly is getting bigger... i'm just waiting to start feeling the baby kick and move around and have a REAL pregnancy buddha belly....

I think i'm going to get stretch marks....ew. I have two small red ones that i got under my gut area from when i did IVF.... cuz they pump you with meds that make you go from normal to 6mths pregnant looking in about 2 days....lol. I feel like they're getting more red.... i go back and forth about how i feel about stretch marks...part of me feels like they are a little reminder of what my body is capable of doing - making life and keeping it safe...i know in time the marks will go away....but if i had to choose, i'd obviously choose to NOT have them.

23 days til we find out who we have growing up in my belly....

craving for today.....

so, some people believe that there is no such things as cravings. I don't know if i've had 'real' cravings, but occasionally, i hear someone talking about something or just get a taste for something and it's all i can think about....i don't always give into my cravings.....but occasionally i might.

So today i forgot a lunch, so my co-worker and i went out to grab a bite....conversation as follows:

CW: so where do you want to go?
me: oh, i don't know, i can pretty much eat about anything today
CW: what does the baby want?
me: oh i dunno, french fries.....wendy's, mcd's...oh, i want steak fries, maybe tommy's....oh i dunno, mmm, pita bread --oh a ckn gyro, maybe chkn nuggets from wendy's and then we can get fries from tommy's...oh, i know, pizza, oh wait, the sauce will make me feel icky...i really want steak fries...
CW: um, okay, well, uh, lets go to tommy's
me: ya know what i really want, i want a pita filled with steak fries, ckn nuggets, mozzarella sticks, some melted cheese oh and cucumber sauce, lettuce and tomato's, yum, doesn't that just sound delicious?
CW: uh, not really....but you're the pregnant one...