and the manual is where???

Ugh...today i'm frustrated and emotional, so i hope that means the witch is on her merry way. I applied for the loan today and we got approved, they called FCI and the financial lady called me.....and it went all down hill...... basically, there is a CD3 test they are waiting for me to do so they can fill out the IVF program plan we are doing....well, no one told me that had to be done B4....i had always been told that i can do it on the cycle we start BCP.....so now that test could possibly mess with the program and i just found out that there is a possibility that we might not get accepted into the plan....which we never realized was an option.....things they take into factoring if you get the plan ....medical health, history of miscarriages, sperm, and BMI - yeah.....we'll just leave that alone......

Anyways, so basically i tell the financial lady that there is no freakn' manual to this and i don't know what the heck i'm doing other then doing what ppl at her office are telling me to do..... i am relying on them to lead the way.... so then i started crying and i think i made the lady feel bad....so she goes all, i don't think there will be an issue, i just want to make sure everything is lined up and that tests are in and programs accepted....and then she goes....not to be pessimistic, but have you thought about what you will do if you don't get accepted into the plan..... *enter cricket noise* me: uh, no...cuz i guess i really never thought that was an option... So, whatever.......i can not control this and like i've said before, this is totally out of my control and i have to let the cards lay where they may.....so where ever they fall they fall and i have to just keep on pushing through.....