special tiny pills...

or birth control pills...whatev. Hubby refers to them as the special tiny pills....like they're magic or something. lol.

So we got accepted into the IVF program!! YEAH!! That's like a million tons of large boulders leaving my shoulders!!!! I feel so much less anxious and nervous..... this program will allow us to do 3 IVF and 3 FET....and if those don't work...we get at least 70% of our money back....now, obviously we pay more, but it's only like a $5,000 difference from the other package were u don't get ur money back and u only get 2 IVF and 2 FET(frozen embryo transfer) Soooooo....yeah on that!!!

Went to meet with the nurse today...... and i don't have to do any LARGE muscle-anna-nicole-smith style shots!!! whooo hoooo...i will not be getting an infected abscess in my butt and die. Instead i get to insert a wonderful little depository 3x's a day and probably leak blue icky stuff out the va-jay-jay....whooo hooo.... but, i'd rather look like i'm peeing out smurfs then possibly get an infection in my butt. So, win-win. :)

It was weird, walking into the office....it was packed with couples....and the sad thing was, is we were all there for the same reason...we want children and we needed some medical intervention...it also made me feel not so alone....like we were all part of this secret society or something.... The looks you give the other females, like i know your pain, your heartache, your dreams and hopes for future children.... I just wanted to know why everyone was there....Male factor or female issues or both? I almost thought to ask everyone to raise their hands up....but i resisted. There was one couple who left and it looked like she just had a retrieval ...sippin' on her ginger ale. Another couple was their and was signing in for their transfer.... it's just crazy...to know you're not alone....all these young couples trying to make a baby.

Soooo, i started BCP today...and i stop taking them the 22nd and we're looking at a possible transfer like Sept 7,8 or 9th!!! OMG!! That's like a month away....like 4 weeks!!! 30 days!!! OMG!!! CRAZY!

I think the best part of our conversation with the nurse was this...
me:Sooooo, can we still have intercourse?
hubby:chuckles
nurse: sure, if you want to have some ROMANCE, you can, BUT you have to use a barrier contraceptive.
me: chuckles...rriiigghhhttt

Yah, cuz ya know it's been almost 3 years....no baby yet...i HIGHLY doubt we're gonna wind up pregnant now...but all she had to say was triplets and the hubby can go get those condoms.... :)

Apparently, even though we're using BCP,when i stop them, i'm injecting my body with hormones to produce eggs, and lots of them and one could fall off and we could get pregnant and not know and they do the transfer and put 2 eggs in there, not knowing there is already a baby growing and then we could have triplets..... yah, so we won't be taking that chance...nope, not at all!!! seriously, no triplets for this lady.

wow...so i got this little calendar with stickers and such...fun!!! so i'm totally going to fill it out....how exciting.

Oh man, i really, really hope it works out the first time...