thoughts...

and they're angry thoughts. I don't know why i'm so angry..well, actually i guess i kinda do.....i dunno....i don't know if it's 2.5 years worth of hoping every month....if it's frustration....i mean, are we trying to have a child every month, knowing that the odds are stacked so much against us and yet, every month we try...why? Why are we trying so hard to have a baby? It just shouldn't be this hard.

Another person i know is expecting....which is fabulous, but seriously....i know 14 people right now expecting a baby....1 just had her baby about a week ago....i can't take it anymore.....i feel like i have cried so much this month...i feel like i continue to get my heart stabbed OVER AND OVER and OVER again!!!!! Rub it in my face a little more universe....i mean, really, lets keep on shoving it in my face...every week why don't u just remind me of what i can't do....get pregnant, have a child....LAME...yup, that's what i think about it.

This sucks.