package and pics

So, i got my package of clothes i ordered from Old Navy....is it bad that 3/5 items were maternity items? I can't believe i'm admitting i bought maternity clothes b4 i'm even pregnant.....

I really do have a great explanation as to why someone who is NOT pregnant would even consider, let alone buy maternity clothes.....but here goes....when i start the shots, i've heard you get SUPER bloated...like your little walnut sized ovaries get blown up to grapefruit sized....sooooo.....yeah. I'm worried about it, the bloating and the clothes not fitting, so when i had to get 'cleared' from the fertility clinic's therapist to begin IVF (apparently all patients have to) i talked about the bloat....so she suggested i buy a pair of pants a size bigger ....great idea...not sure she meant maternity pants, but whatever works....personally, the size bigger pants just do that, they look like i'm wearing to big of pants, where the maternity pants are my size just no buttons!!! Then Old Navy was having a sale on pants and i thought, what if i got those 'real waist' pants.....i'm ALL about the comfy-ness!! So, i ended up with a cheap pair of pants, although not real waist, it's the roll down panel...so i thought whatever...i'll just roll it down...i got them today and they totally don't even look like maternity pants...sweet! and the bonus is i can wear them while pregnant!!! :)

Then i got 2 tops.....one i REALLY REALLY LOVE! let's see if i can get some pictures loaded....

Oh yeah and i went in for my ultrasound and bloodwork...got a call this afternoon that all is well and she faxed on over my paperwork to apply for the program we are hoping for....fingers crossed.....we should probally know sometime friday or early next week.....

Seriously, i LOVE this shirt, i even got it in that color...it looks a little weird in the picture, but seriously, you CAN NOT tell it's a maternity top....it's just so cute....


I got this one in black, what i like is that since it's made for maternity, it's a little bigger and longer in the stomach area so i kinda can bunch it up around my waist and you can't tell if i'm bloated......ah, i love black for that reason..


I am thinking about getting this top, since i'd imagine that it's probably a little looser in the stomach area and i can wear it with a cardigan....



These three shirts are just shirts i think are WAY TO CUTE!!!! i am totally buying them once i'm preggers!!! One thing i have promised myself is NO BLACK (minus the one black tshirt from above) during pregnancy.....for once in my life i don't have to hide my stomach...i get to show it off, so i will...believe me i WILL!!! And i am going to look cute doing it ...darn it!!!

YIPPIE!!!! AF has arrived.... so that means i am on CD1 (cycle Day) Tomorrow, Wednesday, i go in for my ultrasound and bloodwork. Then my 'nurse' will finish the application for the program we are applying for and PLEASE PLEASE CROSS ur fingers we get it!!!! and then we meet with the nurses' on Friday morning and then i'm suppose to start BCP on CD5....which is saturday.

HOLY COWS!!! i can't believe how fast this is moving..... i mean, this is it, we're finally doing this.....we're going to have a baby!!!! It's just so surreal...
I was kinda bummed...like when you are graduating high school bummmed yesterday (i started to spot last night) that this was our last chance to concieve naturally and it didn't work.....kinda like sad to leave that part but excitied for what the future holds..... I can't believe we're actually going to have a baby.....gosh i really really hope and pray IVF works....

getting ready...

for baby.... On a positive side to planning on when you are going to get pregnant.... it helps you get all the things done around the house that you have been just pushing aside. We have this main wall that goes from our downstairs family room to our main level to our upstairs loft and i finally painted it....like 2 months ago....and well, the big part of the wall that's all stairs....i can't really reach and i ran out of paint...soooooooo..... i was telling poppa monkey all the things i can not do while pregnant....such as painting, cleaning the bathtubs or bathrooms, scrubing floors, basically all i can do is sit on the couch and watch tv...LOL....okay, okay, i can stand and watch tv.... no, but i did tell him i will need his help to finish the wall(he hates painting) so we can get it done b4 sept....cuz i can not paint while pregnant. Yeah, so i might also use the pregnancy thing to my advantage...sorry hun, it's -10 degrees out, that's way too cold for the baby in my belly..... ugh, its raining, i could slip on the sidewalk when walking the dog, sorry babe, you'll have to walk her.... lol.... And then i was telling him about a scrapbooking retreat me and some of my best scraps girls are planning in Nov....and he's all ....what? you can not go, you can not take my unborn child that far away....lol, he was very cute about it .....we had some good laughs about it... and i'm planing a party in Dec and i'm like wow, i might be pregnant then, i wonder if i'll have the engery to host a party.... or we have to do this by sept or we should go there b4 sept....it's crazy...this time next year, we could have a baby....
I know that being pregnant that the world does not stop....but, if the IVF works and i'm pregnant.....seriously, i really don't think i'm going to be doing much until i'm well into my 2nd trimester......we've been through so much and spent so much time and money for this...... realisticly, i know i can do nothing and something might still go wrong...but i guess, i'd feel better if i was just more low key and realxed then always on the go....know what i mean?

oh and the best thing about getting ready for baby.......we buckled down and paid off our last credit card!!!!!! It was the best feeling in the world to pay that off...so now we have no more credit card debt!!! woooooo hooooo!

Sunday night thoughts....

1st - I am hotter then hot right now....so i can only think that means the witch is hopefully on her way..... ever since doing acupuncture, i don't really get cramps, but i get hot....and i used to get really hot b4 my period back in High school too...i guess we'll see... okay, onto some more random thoughts...

the witch has not showed her face yet. She is now going on 5 days late..and no i am not pregnant... i really, really wished i was...but alas, i am not...i have taken numerous hpt just to be sure...still stark white... but she can come anytime now...i thought for sure i'd be on BCP by now...but no....

I am going to call the fertility clinic tomorrow, cuz we're suppose to have our nurse's meeting Friday, but i don't know if i'm suppose to have started BCP and gotten my period b4 then..... la te da!

and the manual is where???

Ugh...today i'm frustrated and emotional, so i hope that means the witch is on her merry way. I applied for the loan today and we got approved, they called FCI and the financial lady called me.....and it went all down hill...... basically, there is a CD3 test they are waiting for me to do so they can fill out the IVF program plan we are doing....well, no one told me that had to be done B4....i had always been told that i can do it on the cycle we start BCP.....so now that test could possibly mess with the program and i just found out that there is a possibility that we might not get accepted into the plan....which we never realized was an option.....things they take into factoring if you get the plan ....medical health, history of miscarriages, sperm, and BMI - yeah.....we'll just leave that alone......

Anyways, so basically i tell the financial lady that there is no freakn' manual to this and i don't know what the heck i'm doing other then doing what ppl at her office are telling me to do..... i am relying on them to lead the way.... so then i started crying and i think i made the lady feel bad....so she goes all, i don't think there will be an issue, i just want to make sure everything is lined up and that tests are in and programs accepted....and then she goes....not to be pessimistic, but have you thought about what you will do if you don't get accepted into the plan..... *enter cricket noise* me: uh, no...cuz i guess i really never thought that was an option... So, whatever.......i can not control this and like i've said before, this is totally out of my control and i have to let the cards lay where they may.....so where ever they fall they fall and i have to just keep on pushing through.....

and so it begins....

so, i got a call from the one clinic where we're doing the retrevial and transfer..... we set up our nurse consult....ah!!! for next week!!!! double ahhh....we go in friday morning to 'discuss' our protocol and the Dr has it all ready...oMG...i'm so excitited..i mean, this is really, truely happening...... i'm still super nervous about the shots, but i'm feeling better about the idea of having twins....so, they kinda cancels each other out..lol.

Then the pharmacy calls and lets me know the price of the meds....and guess what?!?!?! Insurance will be covering some of it!!! whooo hooooo!! of course insurance won't cover the big stuff....but....i'll take what i can get covered...like the baby asprin...i think i have some of that laying around the house...... and i found out i get a patch....don't know if that's going to be BCP or for something else...hope i don't have too many shots in there.....

Anyways....it's crazy cuz when we decicided to go ahead...we just jumped in with both feet....everything really is happening so fast...it's surreal to me to think that i will be pregnant in like 6 weeks...no matter what the outcome is, i mean, even if it's only during those 2 weeks.... i will FINALLY be pregnant!!!! Oh man, i hope this works!!!! Even if it doesn't work on the 1st try...i really hope it works at some point during our 6 tries.

Hey, Hey...we're the monkey's..

so cute, my hubby, poppa monkey..... i love that he's so into having a baby...he's excitied for this journey in life with me and i couldn't be happier.

So, i realized i never explained what's up with the monkey stuff. Well....here goes.
So, i have a lot of hair on my head...i'm talking like i could cut half my hair off my head underneath and it'd still look like i've got a full head of hair..... and poppa monkey...well, he's got very strong eyebrows...and if i didn't wax mine, they'd be crazy...just like my hair......so anyways, i always said we'd have little hairy monkey children...i'll be waxing their eyebrows in their sleep (okay, okay, i really wouldn't.....) and they will probally be tiny like his cousin's kids and they all reminded me of little spider monkeys when they were just tiny babies...so......that's the story of the monkey's....

Hmm....i kinda have a taste for a banana...lol